Father Knows Best

Spring break. We've counted down the weeks for that 7 days where most head to the sunniest beaches and put school and homework behind. It came and I could feel the relief flow throughout my body. For 9 days I could forget about school and just relax. My boyfriend and I packed up our bags, loaded his car and headed to his home. I was ready for this break. Ready for the fun, the laughs and the relaxing. However fever had a say in the matter. My boyfriend began running a fever Friday and continued to for what would be 6 days. It spiked at almost 105 and then eventually went down...all the way to 96. Panic set in. My weakness is worry. It's one of those things that controls me. And when I saw my boyfriend laying on the couch sick and not himself, worry sat in. I sat and cried as the devil began to tell me horrific things and getting me to the point of a full fledged panic attack. However, Timothy's mother came to me and hugged me crying and said, "God loves him more than you or I do. That's my kid and I feel like I can take care of him the best, but God has reminded me he is the one who can." My worry vanished. God did love Timothy more than anything. How could I say that I knew what was best when I wasn't the one who formed him? It wasn't the sunshine and beaches spring break I thought it would be, but I learned something that has put me on a new trek. God loves me so much. He loves everyone I love so much more than I do. Gods love overpowers everything. He takes care of us even in the worst of situations. He knows best. Like the old tv show, "Father Knows Best", out Father really does know what's best.

The Day Cupid Shoots Arrows Into Your Butt

Valentine's Day. The day where men rush out to buy the women in their lives candy and flowers. This Valentine's Day was the first I had with a significant other and it wasn't what I expected. I expected a day filled with happiness with flowers and candy. Neither happened. One it was a school day, filled with papers and quizzes and homework that kept my boyfriend's mind pretty stressed the whole day. Another, was my crazy up and down emotional state. Could I have written out a better Valentine's Day? Could I have predicted the roller coaster it ended up being? Crying, anger and unhappiness filled the day. My poor boyfriend tried. Tried to take me out on a picnic and get Chinese. Tried to cheer me up, but it just wasn't happening. His car had been broken down for about 2 weeks and he finally got it fixed that day and I was just in a mood some guys would call "the typical PMS". Nothing was cheering me up. After having our picnic, which he ended up cheering me up and making me laugh and smile we headed back to campus to get back to homework. I walk in and the smiles and laughter of everyone going out to dinner and me coming back to homework made me sad. I didn't want to do homework. I didn't want to be at school. I wanted to be out painting the town red...or pink. Unfortunately I really couldn't have a choice in the matter with papers due in just a few hours. I tried to make it the best I could, but I wasn't in the most jolly mood. After getting all our homework done and turning it in we headed to our separate dorms to go to bed. I was up all night, not feeling well and just wanting to go to sleep so I could get some amount of sleep before I had to get up early for my Developmental Psychology class. I lay awake in my room with my roommate fast asleep and just prayed I would go to sleep. The next morning I woke up later than I wanted and hurried and got dressed so I could meet my boyfriend for breakfast. I come downstairs, not feeling well and just ready to go back to bed, to find my boyfriend with a bag full of candy, a stuffed bear and a cup of coffee. Could I have asked for a better morning? I look back over the day and I wonder, was it as bad as it seemed? No, God wanted to show me something. Life isn't about what you get, or about how you feel. It's about making the best out of even the worst of situations. My day was far from bad, it wasn't the greatest, but it's one I am truly thankful for. I learned a lot about myself and what God wants to change in me. I had a great Valentine's Day, because not only did I get to spend it with a wonderfully amazing guy who cares about me a lot, but I was loved by the creator of the world. He loved me and showed me love like never before. Thank God today for even the worst of days, maybe he's trying to show you something.

The start of a new relationship.

Starting today I will become one of the many who spends hours writing down their thoughts and feelings and posting it on the web for all to see. Could it get any more private then that? Here I am, beginning to spill my guts and lay my life out in front of all of you to read...have I gone crazy? Has this ridiculous winter weather gotten to my head? Have I become so bored with my own life that I'm resorting to blogging? None the less I'm doing it. We will see how it goes. Maybe we will have that kind of relationship that lasts for 50 years. Enjoy my happiness, my sadness, my madness and my just plain craziness. Welcome to the world of "Coffee & Cheesecake in Paris."